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Straughberry

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Skip to the final two paragraphs for a TL: DR in a sense.

Hello. I am posting this from an alternate account as to not look like a cry for attention or anything like that, and it is not... But I wanted to say thank you to you, the other players of Runescape, and all involved with Jagex, for saving my life, multiple times. This post is going to be pretty dark... But please know that I am safe, and it makes me extremely happy to get these feelings out, and I hope that by posting this, I can help someone else who may also be feeling down at times. This may even get deleted for how dark it is.. but please try to stick with it to the end... here goes.

Life is hard, there is no denying that, and sometimes the road seems extremely unfair. I have lived my life the best I could, I finished college working as hard as I could, and the hands I have been dealt since then only seem to get worse as time goes by... But I always had one constant keeping me sane when times were at their darkest, Runescape.

I recently have developed a type of heart disease that just saps a lot of my endurance and has made my life extremely difficult, it has gotten worse over the years, it is rare I have a day where I actually feel well; I should be able to live a long life however from what I have been told by cardiologists, but they do not want me working anymore. However I am not going to get into all of the details here, there are many who are much worse off than me and I am not trying to come off a victim here, I am not, my poor dietary choices growing up, and albeit some genetics, ultimately led to this, but let's just say the road on my life is my own, and through my own experiences and ability to handle how those experiences shape me, it has still been extremely hard on me personally, and emotionally, sometimes, more often than I'd admit, I just want to hang up my coat and end it all, failure after failure, and sometimes feeling like all I can do is just hope things get better.

19-Jul-2019 01:18:46 - Last edited on 19-Jul-2019 19:50:55 by Straughberry

Straughberry

Straughberry

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However, to have a place where I can login, and be surrounded by people who like and appreciate me, has kept me away from jumping off of the razors edge more times than again, I'd like to admit.

Runescape, on my little laptop screen has been a window OUT of a world, where I often feel very unloved, unlucky, powerless, and like a general failure, INTO a world where there are tons of people who have never met me irl, but treat me as if they know me, who congratulate me when I achieve goals, and people whom can't wait to tell me about the goals they have achieved since I was last online or saw them, and I by being positive everywhere I go have made more friends here than I ever could have made in real life. I do have very good friends in real life as well, but again I try not to be negative around anyone, ever, so I often hide these things, and lately my situation has been extremely rough on me, and I got to my breaking point again, where I just break down and sob at how hopeless my situation feels and that I just can't seem to get out of my rut no matter how hard I try, then I log into RuneScape and everything shifts, it gives me the hope to press on and just try to get through the day, because despite how bad gets, how bad it feels, it's probably not as bad as it seems, and things can only get better when they are at their worst right?

This has made me want to issue a thank you to everyone for being really cool to me and giving me a second home, all of this has helped me see past those hard times, and move on.

19-Jul-2019 01:18:53 - Last edited on 19-Jul-2019 01:20:13 by Straughberry

Straughberry

Straughberry

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What I am trying to say is that RuneScape and the playerbase that I have come to know has inadvertently, without intending to, or knowingly until today, saved my life on multiple occasions... When I am at my worst and really thinking about ending it and how to do it right now if I were to attempt ending myself right now, I always force myself to think of everyone I know on this game, and how I actually care about their achievements, and want to see them succeed, and want to talk to them again, and how bad it would let them down if I just never signed in again, and how much my positivity has influenced them, (I host drop parties and events a lot as well and try to be as nice and helpful as possible to everyone I meet.)

Being positive as I try to be and always put on a happy face made me realize recently that the saying, "It's always the people you least expect," is extremely true... If I disappeared, nobody would expect it, because I always appear extremely happy, I am almost always laughing when I get a chance, or cracking as many jokes as possible, but as it has been said, as with most humor, there are tragic truths hidden behind the humor.

I put on a happy face, because I want to make others happy, and it makes me happy to know I can make other people happy, whether that be giving a lower level player 1m to see them say "OMG TY!!" and then get PM'd by them a few months later to see them saying "Just wanted to say I maxed recently, and thank you for your donation when I was a low level, because that kept me playing and gave me access to resources that helped me do quests"
Or just being a goofball and making people laugh with my silly jokes and antics.
But what really keeps me going is knowing I have a place where I can come and feel welcome, especially when there is nowhere where I feel like that in real life.

19-Jul-2019 01:19:00 - Last edited on 19-Jul-2019 01:20:35 by Straughberry

Straughberry

Straughberry

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So again, thank you everyone for being here, and even though I know you will never read this, infact it will probably be deleted because of how dark it is, I still want to say, thank you Jagex, all of the Jmods out there, Andrew and Paul Gower for creating this world I have known since I was a child, Jagex for keeping it up, and you, again, the players.

Next time you see a player in game, anyone, say hello. You never know what they are going through, what their story is, if they are hurting right now, or if they are alright, but just stop a moment and say hello to someone, you might make a friend, and you might save a life.

Thank you.

19-Jul-2019 01:19:05 - Last edited on 19-Jul-2019 01:21:35 by Straughberry

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19-Jul-2019 22:29:55

Straughberry

Straughberry

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Thank you for your kind replies, and I don't mind if someone replies without reading it, I know it is quite a brick wall made of text, but the last two paragraphs summarize pretty well. I have no idea what Acid Ghost posted, it appears to be hidden, either way always remember if you're feeling down and like you have nobody; somebody does love you, and you will make it through, and things do get better, just give it the time to.

20-Jul-2019 01:19:11

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